I miss you already

Tonight was another one of those nights where I get a lot done, but don't get any sleep. I've been awake since about 11am yesterday... and I REALLY thought that I was going to go to bed early, as a wave of sleepiness hit me around 9pm, but somehow I muscled through that until I felt wide awake, and stayed that way all night, until now.

I was busy editing images I took of Crobot while they were in the studio tracking their album, but after going at it all night, I decided to wind down by turning my attention to something else.

My little family <3

A few weeks ago, my little feline baby was hanging out in one of his usual spots... right in front of our back sliding door.

Every morning Keith or I open the venetian blinds for Robin so that he can bask in the sunlight, which, as a cat, is one of his favorite activities.

Keith came home after a long day, and as he always does, said hello to me, gave me a kiss, and then went to say hello to Robin.  He ended up stretching out onto the floor next to our little one and they laid there together, just thinking about the day, I suppose.

Robin, Keith, and I all have a very special relationship.  I'm willing to bet there are people out there who think that we're totally silly for this, but, to us, Robin isn't just a cat.  He's not a pet.  He's family.  REAL family.  He's our little boy... our "baby".  Robin and I have been through a lot together, starting from when I first found him, limping and homeless, to my sleeping on a homemade cot on my parents' garage floor for 2 summers in a row, because my mother was allergic to Robin, to my sneaking him off to college for a year... then to work-housing while I worked 30 minutes away from home one Fall... to finally being with Keith and I both, after we got married.

I saved him from the street, but he has saved me in more ways than I would have time to tell you right now.  I often refer to him as my little guardian angel, who came to me at JUST the right time.

Robin is full of personality and zest.  My mother often refers to him as "the little alien", because of some of the behavior she has observed him (from afar) taking part in.  His emotions sometimes almost come across as human for a few moments.  He comes to check on Keith and I if one of us is upset.  He cuddles with me at night, because that happens to be both my and Robin's favorite thing to do when it's bedtime.  He plays games with us... he lets us know when he needs something and what it is... and yes, sometimes he is a little bit of a brat, but I couldn't love him any less... even when he's batting me in the face because he thought that Keith and I should be awake at ALL TIMES until he felt adjusted, right after our move into our new home.

These images may not be "technically" correct.  They might not even mean anything to you... they may just seem like random snapshots to you, but to me, these images mean the world.  These images are of my little family, whom I love and adore; That little 4-legged being that shows both Keith and I so much love, and my husband who does his best to provide for and love our little family to the extent of his abilities.

Going through these images tugs at my heart as I get ready to ship off on tour again this Sunday.  I know that I will see them again once this month (month and a half, really) passes, but I can't help but think about how much I missed them the first month out.  It stinks when there isn't a little warm ball of fur around to hug your neck and tuck his head under your chin.

It stinks not to be able to sit in the living room working on images, while your husband plays his favorite video game with that little ball of fur tucked in by his feet.

I truly love the evenings where Keith and I sit together on the couch for dinner and watch an episode of our favorite show together.  After that we will tend to split off into our separate activities, but it's still nice because there's still a sense of "togetherness" as our little family spends time together, while still doing our own thing.

But just like my husband who does what he needs to do in order to provide for his family, I have to do what I need to do as well, which means leaving for a month and a half for work.

However, that's why I'm glad for moments like these caught "on film".

These are moments for me to hold onto while I'm gone... to look over while I'm out, to appease any hints of homesickness... and to satisfy the need to see their faces and feel the love that they both give.

I don't really honestly expect most people to truly understand the dynamic of our little family, but I feel SUPER blessed to have them, and I am so lucky to be loved by them. CLICK HERE and 'like' Emily McGonigle Photography on Facebook!